Well it's been quite a while since I joined dA, and ever since the very beginning, I was a HARPG account. My focus was on horses mainly, and this is how I got all of you (almost 1300 watchers, I still cant believe this honesty <3) to watch me, and I first of all want to thank you for your undying support, even if you were quiet or active, for helping me grow as an account and artist, and making me believe in myself.
For the past months, maybe even a year, I've been inactive and always found excuses for it, which mostly are true. But I'd like to give an overall explanation, and share with you a conclusion that I've come to after lots of thinking.
So, basically my life has changed quite a lot. I used to be quite a lonely person, with no friends, which left me with a lot of time in my hands and no way to express my feelings other then with my drawings. Now, I am happy to say I found real friends which I hang out with all the time, and, most important, a very special someone, my boyfriend, in which I found everything I was hoping for, and even more. My weekends and holidays are spent entirely with them, having more fun that I ever thought I would.
My week days go like this: I wake up and go to school, I come home at around 3 pm, eat, then spend my whole day sleeping until its 8 pm, I do my homework, eat again, and then go back to sleep. While listening to what my friends do during the day,I became really disappointed with myself and my lack of activity, and started rethinking my life. I'm not productive at all. I don't draw, study too well, I don't do a lot of the stuff I wish to do because of my laziness and lack of motivation. And it is not right.
It's been quite a while since I last drew something. And when I finally actually draw something, I then again put the pen down for months and months. And this has to stop. I want to follow my dream and go to an art college. How will I achive that dream if I don't work hard enough?
So I am going to change.
And the first thing I am changing is connected to deviantArt.
I am afraid that I no longer have interest in HARPG, or horses in general, as much as I used to. My recent drawings are mainly humans, and this is the area I want to focus in for now. I want to improve, not only with this, but also other stuff, such as architecture, landscape, fashion design, until I find what I am most happy with when drawing.
I tried creating a new account for this kind of art, and keeping this one for horses, since i know this is the reason you guys are following me...but this is not working for me. I barely get any activity at all on the other account, and that brings my motivation even lower. Therefore I've made a decision. I will delete the other account and keep this one.
But it will no longer be a HARPG one, but one for my overall art. I realize I will probably loose most of you, of the comments and faves I used to have on new art, because you follow me for horse art, but I think this is the best decision for me, and a easier start then with the other account.
Therefore, I will clear my gallery from most art, and start posting, as often as I can, any new art that I will do, once I get myself back on track.
It would mean the world to me if you would still support me, I always appreciate any comment and fave, and it makes my day to think that someone actually looks and likes what I do. It's what makes me continue on this path.
Sooo I think I already wrote a lot...and probably forgot half of the things I wanted to say besides this XD But anyway...thank you for reading and...see you soon